Yesterday was thanksgiving. Normally this time of year my heart turns into a Grinch, and I get to the point that all the holiday stuff is too much. Used to be in years past, too much family. Overwhelming with such a large family, when growing up that was never the case. Though now the family has splintered off into their own lives and worlds. There is less family, and with that comes good things, along with sad things. For less means there is a loss. I’m not talking about anyone passing away. I’m talking about just the general loss of connectedness.
I have learned that I can not be responsible for how folks like me. You either do or you don’t, there is No MORE TRY. Yes, that choice is yours. I have to say that road does travel both ways, for I’m making choices in my life in that respect as well. Sometimes just wish you would just do us both the honest favor and be truthful just how you feel. Lately, some truths have finally come out. The truth will set you free, and this truth has been freeing. No longer do I need to feel that I should keep trying to keep a connection, when there really isn’t one in the first place, or one that is desired to be. So, wishing them well – no ill feelings – along with a heart felt good bye. The former welcome mat is no longer set out by the front door. If there is ever to be one, the welcome mat will have to be new and different. The old just wasn’t working.
When things are meant to be, they will last, be a blessing to those involved. Otherwise – there are times to just move on.
I’m thankful for those that are meant to be in my life. For they have a special place in my heart. Those friendships, relationships are what I’m thankful for. There may not be an abundance in my life. But what is there, is high quality stuff. That doesn’t come easy, or cheap but by far better worth it in the long run. This is what will last a life time, or such a time as this.
Yes, typically the holiday doesn’t hold much for me. For I can count my blessings, and be thankful for them all year long. Sharing that with some ones special makes it all the better. And this year, my heart is joyed and I am happy, thankful and blessed.